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Monday, November 26, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@1:35:00 PM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

The weekend have been a great time for me .
yeah , it really is .
Know why ? I've spent time with my families from both mum & dad's side .
gerek hoiii ;DDD
On saturday , went to Ucumus House !!
Mum's side obviously . Went there , play with lil cousins .
send songs to jun , and played each other Hp laa seyh .
and i was fed-up siot . my battery flat seyhh . and i was like wtf ?!
and i wanna go home fast , so can recharged my battery seyhh .
i wish , my superman was there , so he can fly and take my charger for me , without me going home .
haha
okayy , pathetic ?
man learnt silat laa abe ? haha , i'm not the type that nk blaja silat babe !
hahaha .
then , waited for birthday girl to come home .
zuli mali , kak oyahh !! my kak sedare kesygan (ehem , kak su,jgn jeles yer ? =P)
we say some prayers , ate ate ate . kte org jiwe ah babe .
jun,kak oyah & me , wore green t-shirt .
haha .
then , we played games , i get $10 from ucumus .
hahaha .
it was over all a veryyyyy greatt time seyhh .
i wish i can rewind back time , and and i wished that my hp's batt wasn't flat .
Abg Ariff sent us home .
and then , went we reached home arld , ble nk kuar dari kerete .
i said " bye , princess wanna be "
kak su was like " cheh , ade org panggel kak su , princess seyh ."
then i said , "firah ckp princess wanna be"
abg ariff said" wannabe ."
hahaha , we laughed .
kekek siot .
kak su , i ate ur cake liao .
hahahaha .
damn tasty siot .
=DD
On Sunday , family dayy at my father's side .
it was greatt also laa .
tpi tk se gerek sbelah mak.
haha.
the house were filled with laughters .
many funny things happened .
haha , and then . my batt flat lagik ! fed-up laaa siaaa .
hahaaaaaaa .
okayy , i'm laughing .
boohoo.
ketawe jeq tawu eh .
haha .
takecare all ~

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Thursday, November 22, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@9:50:00 PM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

Met Sufiyan so called Yan yesterday .Nazrah want to tagged along .
so went to his block , and there came Yan .
So talked2 a long conversation with him la . Suddenly, yan cakked for his friend .
and i was so shocked ! it was zikri taww .
hahah.
i was speechless at that point of time okayy ?
and Nazrah was like "tu,zik kan kan kan ?!"
Yan was like , " kau kenal dorang?"
"kenal laa , tuh firah kann ? , abeh dekni Nazrah kan ?"
haha.
Yan said"kalao pompuan , kau kenal jeq "
then he was bla3.
and we chatted la .
Then , went jalan2 there with naz .
it was falling dayy.
i falled & nazrah too.
nazrah was the kekek-est okayy ?
kimekkk sahh ~
over all was a greatt dayy.
zikri chatted with me that night .
and he was shocked upon seeing me.
i said that too.
hahs ,
planned to meet him today ,
bt he was with gf and bla3.
don't talk about it okayy ?

Today , firstly .
i met Nazrah & Yazwani we lepaked at nazrah's block la.
klaughed and took pictures a lot laa okayy ?
then me and naz went to sunplaza and waited for this musibat ahh ~
sialan sia him . kalao tk nak lepak together tuh call la apee.
tapi tk de bunyi sakk .
aku daa la penat nk mampos . nazrah daa mabok.
aku mcm nk muntah , when we called him he said
"apeeee ?!"
siak kann.
he said he dont know whether to ikot or not .
to youuu !
if you're reading this kann.
aku mintak maaf ah ehks .
aku daa betol2 fed up ngn kao sakk tadii .
sbb tuh aku tk ley tahan
aku maki kau .
sorry uhk
for the mean time
jgn chat /contact aku
aku nk lupekan kau .
pembohong laa sial ~
=(
i hate liars tawwww ...

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Friday, November 16, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@9:21:00 PM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

I can stand my own legs .
Seriously , i don't need my cousins and friends alrd.
because they started to leave me with certain impact on myself laa of course .
Pathetic + lame .
Some say i'm some sort of a pathetic loser,cry baby , ngembeng , weak , immatured and bla3.
Okayy .
read this !
get it right .
it's not that i don't appreciate what people do for me , but i want to try doing something by myself .
oke ?
can ?
i cried last night .
yes . i swear !
i was msging shahirah .
when tears rolled down my cheeks .
fcuk okay .
shahirah and me cried together .
like pathetic kans ~
idk how much longer i will live in this earth .
right .
my days are getting exciting .
i'm still waiting for my brother's marriage dayy that will fall on.
24th of december .
we will going to kedah 21st december .will be reaching there on the 22nd .
23rd we will off to Kelantan .
and overnight at where ever.
24th off to my sister-in-law's house .
and nikah .
sahh !
hahaha .
yea , went to take books from Jannah's house just now .
bla3.
okay .
no mood to type now.
conferencing with the east-springians sec .
yanti,noura and nazrah .
takecare losers !
D:

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Tuesday, November 6, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@11:50:00 AM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

When i'm sick .
i feel like doing something pathetic and lame .
huh ?
you got what i mean ?
blahs ;
aku aderh diarrheao or whatever way it is spelled .
haixs .
Wan msged me in the morning .
but due to w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r
i suddenly woke up.
unusual feelings babe .
my hp vibrated .
stated there . 2new messages.
one is from Lela & one is from Wan .
haixs .
mum disallowed me from going out .
bla bla .
mentang2 firah saket apeee .
i met Alif yesterday with nazrah , shahirah and ayuni .
alif was like looking from far and staring .
and my girlfriends started whistling to him .
grr .
basikal gerek ah ehk ?
My adeq was cycling with his friends laa farid & firman .
then came to this point of time .
Luqman saw Amir .
my so called "adeq angkat" since primary school .
and my best buddy ?
hahs .
Amir: eyh ! adeq Maghfirah ! *smile widely*
Man: *smiled and looked as if a blur sotong*
Alif: kakak kau mane ? , mintak air sikit boley ?
Man : haha . * walked away*

pathetic kan ?
hahaha.
alif ! wth !
all my secrets are revealed .
eyh ?
mcm fhm sah .
hahaaa ;DD
i really can't enjoy yesterday much .
just because of my illness .
:(
blahs ; as if i care.
i mean . i care .
because if i was perfectly healthy i should be at my
school now having fun at my camping !
grrrrr >:(
nvm .
it's all fated this wayyy .
went to the doctor yesterday night laa kann .
sial uhk .
at sunplaza i saw mustafa, endra .
they were like pekik-ing my namee .
but ended up i we heard "...raaaah !"
there were 3 of us who's name ended with rahh
Firaaaah(myself) , shahiraaaah & nazraaaah .
excluded ayuniii .
hahas .
the maen baju punye budak .
siak laa .
they kept following us .
3 groups of boys kept following us .
but from different directions .
and 2 groups of bays kept staring and shouted " minahhhh , sini ah ! join kte nyer group!! "
something like that laa.
we were like " pathetic bunch of gangsters !"
i want my daughter of anuar to come home fast .
she will be going to the bla bla bla(for me to know,for you to find out) today afternoon with her friend's family.
because of asomething , that you all shouldnt know laa eyh .
kk .
gtg now babes !
my stomach is painful now(?)
takecareeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
(:

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Monday, November 5, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@10:05:00 PM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

Nothing much to say .
i'm just fucked up .
thanks for the day girls.
i enjoyed it , but too bad.
i had diarrheao and can't enjoy it :(
haixs.
just takecare people.
and have a nice day tomorrow .
and to the ncc sea family.
i miss you all alrd

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Thursday, November 1, 2007 ♥

Last heartbreak@2:01:00 PM

Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥

I kep thinking whether i will be seeing the next Syawal or might as well the next ramadhan
"Ajal Maut Di Tangan Tuhan"
That is what i have been hearing from adults & friends . bla3
hey , hold on . did i just said something ? people kept asking why am i talking craps and all that. actually i'm getting ready for death(eyh?)
i want to repent(i've done it unsincerely)
hey , wait a minute . i guess i need support laa oke ?
need to lessen the amount of bad words i use every single day
actually , i kept thinking if i'm a good friend/daughter/muslim/sister & student
haixs .
by people opinions i am . but for my own perspective . i'm not.
i'm not able to hold all the responsibillities that if i've done a mistake.
get it people ? i'm not that matured actually.by the look & personality that makes me look matured , but that is all a lie . inner side of me is immatured . i kept thinking of a way .
to think like an adult thinks . so that i may help with a bit of my creativity ?
you see . in ncc sea . i'm not a good cadet . i made many mistakes . and sergeants get fed up with me . but i'm trying .
not onl y in ncc sea laa . everywhere .
in people eyes i'm bla3 .
i'm trying to be the best . but , do you/they understand ? even my family don't
only my mother understands(sometimes)
i just had a break up friendship with my friend .
wtf ? grr :/
it had me feeling crazyy .
and next year i will be in sec 2 . and will i be able to be a part of 2H ? or might as well a springfielder again ? i prayed all day long . i hope not to transfer .
people get irritated . they think i'm cracking a joke .
some say " alaaa, firah tipu laa !!"
they think i'm a fool or what ?
do you think i like to lie ?
my mum have been bringing up this topic.
actually from last time .
pasir ris sec or east view
my choice is none of the above.
it's springfield sec then
i'm proud being a springfielder ,1H-ian and 2H-ian wanna be.
people kept teasing me " chehh , daa sec 2 seyh next year.kencang ahh"
blahs . i don't care . with sec ones next year ? am i able to face them all ?
fcuk .
being a sore loser
being a weak senior
i'm being a bad example to the sec 1
as if i care.
haixs .
ridzwan msged me and i apologised to him .
bla3 .
i know he's hurt . i'm the one who hurt him .
grrr !
alif , thankyou boyy .
i know you're shy.
nazrah , thankyou lovee (:
sharbina , i'm sick of you . you've changed .
you keep mixing around with bad company and at last you come to me
and nazrah for help & protection
and you treat us as your what ?
but , i can't blame her .
it relies on her surrounding , peer influenced .
like me . i'm influenced by my boy-friends to smoke .
and i get an advice from my elder friends whom i respect .
isk , thankyou . i know you're not a good person yourself .
but you told me to stay away from bad company
takecare of nazrah . i know you can .
my day today is fcuking moody .
i'm gonna study for madrasah exams .
jalan raye is over people.
stop going to people house .
and you.
stop being a flirt will you ?

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