Thursday, November 1, 2007 ♥
Last heartbreak@2:01:00 PM
Dear Sayaaaaangs ,
Firaaaah here ! ♥
I kep thinking whether i will be seeing the next Syawal or might as well the next ramadhan
"Ajal Maut Di Tangan Tuhan"That is what i have been hearing from adults & friends . bla3hey , hold on . did i just said something ? people kept asking why am i talking craps and all that. actually i'm getting ready for death(eyh?) i want to repent(i've done it unsincerely)hey , wait a minute . i guess i need support laa oke ?need to lessen the amount of bad words i use every single dayactually , i kept thinking if i'm a good friend/daughter/muslim/sister & studenthaixs .by people opinions i am . but for my own perspective . i'm not.i'm not able to hold all the responsibillities that if i've done a mistake.get it people ? i'm not that matured actually.by the look & personality that makes me look matured , but that is all a lie . inner side of me is immatured . i kept thinking of a way .to think like an adult thinks . so that i may help with a bit of my creativity ?you see . in ncc sea . i'm not a good cadet . i made many mistakes . and sergeants get fed up with me . but i'm trying .not onl y in ncc sea laa . everywhere .in people eyes i'm bla3 .i'm trying to be the best . but , do you/they understand ? even my family don'tonly my mother understands(sometimes)i just had a break up friendship with my friend .wtf ? grr :/it had me feeling crazyy .and next year i will be in sec 2 . and will i be able to be a part of 2H ? or might as well a springfielder again ? i prayed all day long . i hope not to transfer . people get irritated . they think i'm cracking a joke . some say " alaaa, firah tipu laa !!"they think i'm a fool or what ?do you think i like to lie ?my mum have been bringing up this topic.actually from last time .pasir ris sec or east viewmy choice is none of the above.it's springfield sec theni'm proud being a springfielder ,1H-ian and 2H-ian wanna be.people kept teasing me " chehh , daa sec 2 seyh next year.kencang ahh"blahs . i don't care . with sec ones next year ? am i able to face them all ?fcuk .being a sore loser being a weak seniori'm being a bad example to the sec 1as if i care.haixs .ridzwan msged me and i apologised to him .bla3 .i know he's hurt . i'm the one who hurt him .grrr !alif , thankyou boyy .i know you're shy.nazrah , thankyou lovee (:sharbina , i'm sick of you . you've changed .you keep mixing around with bad company and at last you come to meand nazrah for help & protectionand you treat us as your what ?but , i can't blame her .it relies on her surrounding , peer influenced .like me . i'm influenced by my boy-friends to smoke .and i get an advice from my elder friends whom i respect .isk , thankyou . i know you're not a good person yourself .but you told me to stay away from bad companytakecare of nazrah . i know you can .my day today is fcuking moody . i'm gonna study for madrasah exams .jalan raye is over people.stop going to people house .and you.stop being a flirt will you ?Labels: firaaaaaaaaaaah
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